Thursday Sept 24, 2009

Linda
I have had a chance to talk with you off and on. Still you suffer with extreme exhaustion and feeling so sick. I am so sorry- I wish it were not so. I wish things could be different. That we could laugh, share fun times together on the phone, talk longer, but you are too tired and it is hard for you right now.
I understand, but it still makes me so sad. It is hard.

In the meantime I continue to plod forward in my effort to take care of mom and provide her with as much tender care as you and Chris did. It is a daunting task and I thank you for doing it for over a year. I feel overwhelmed and exhausted by it already and it has only been 2 months for me so far.

Mom gave me a scare - she fell last night- I managed to get her up and she wasn't hurt, but she did cut her arm on the railing of the staircase. I put band aids on her arm. However, she bled on her white sheets in the night. When I got home from work today I found that she had taken the sheets off her bed and thrown them in the corner. But as you and I both know, if you have blood on something, it has to be put in cold water right away to get it out. Well, she didn't do that, of course, because she can't, and so once I discovered that the sheets had blood on them, I put the sheets in clorox and cold water.

Oddly enough, the clorox ate a hole in the top part of the flat sheet and so I had to go out and buy her a new set of KING SIZE sheets for her bed. Guess I learned something new about clorox that I never knew before- don't put too much clorox on fabric for too long or it will "eat" the fabric !! YIPES!

Anyway, she was fine, so I thought. But this afternoon, while I was putting the sheets in the laundry I heard a thud! I yelled up to mom and asked her if she was OK and she said, "yes" but I didn't believe her so I went running to find her and I saw her "crawling" on the floor from where she had fallen--she didn't want me to know she had fallen so she was trying to get in a place where I couldn't see her on the floor. I quickly ran to her and tried to pick her up, but she was so weak that it was very hard for me to lift her up off the floor. She had to hold on to the railing of the stairs so I could help her lift up off the floor.

It was scary needless to say. I am insisting that she now gets Life Line and wears it on her body daily since I can't be home with her all the time, like you were able to be..

So, kuddos to you and Chris for all you did to take care of Mom. It is a very daunting task. You did a great job. You served her well. Now it is my turn. And while I find it hard from time to time, I am grateful I get the time to spend with her regardless.

I know she misses living with you all- she wishes so much she could be there taking care of you- isn't that sweet?--- even though she can barely take care of herself...
I guess mom's are like that, eh!

But since neither she or I can be there to help you as you go through another type of struggle - a time of suffering--know that we appreciate all you have done for mom, and all you have always done for me. You must be headed straight to heaven when you leave this earth! The Lord is waiting with open arms... He is grateful to you for all the love you gave to mom and everyone! So am I ...

Big Sis, I am still "walking with Christ" for you and carry you to Jesus , Mary and the Holy Spirit daily, and I ask them to guide you and comfort you. I know they are doing that even though it is hard on you. The Lord never told us that we would not suffer, but He has promised to "walk with us" through our suffering.. I know you feel Him "walking with you" in this difficult time of suffering Linda.
I know you know His love-my dear sister. I hope you rest peacefully tonight again. I love you so much.
I truly miss you- Here are some hugs for you--- Much love and good night- Sharon


Marcus, your dear Mom called me and told me the great news about you. That your 3 tumors have totally shrunk and gone away and the 4th big one is 50 percent shrunk and that the doctors feel so good about your treatment that they are going to reduce the length of time that you have to take the chemo. Marcus that is amazing..... I am so thankful to God. I am so happy for you.
God has great plans in store for you- I know you trust Him. I know you know that He loves you deeply. Hold on to that Marcus and "be not afraid" my friend. The Lord your God is with you.

I am "Walking with Christ" daily for you and carrying you too to Jesus, Mary and the Dear Holy Spirit of God and praying for your speedy recovery--- we need good holy priests, and so you have to get well soon-- So, may the Lord bless you and heal you, and may we witness you being ordained a holy priest for Jesus one day soon---Amen....
In Christ love,
Sharon