Hi Linda,
I haven't spoken with you today, but I am hoping that you are resting comfortably.
I am "walking with Christ" for you again today and entrusting you to Jesus, Mary, the Holy Spirit, all the angels, saints and to all of our dear friends here to pray for your speedy recovery and to feel better..
I miss you sis... I think of you so often. I feel like little Terese (the little Flower) in that she missed her sister Pauline so much too when Pauline left for the convent. I know you are not in the convent, but the miles separate us and your disease keeps us apart- and Terese was separated by the miles of her sisters location in the convent, away from home, and the lifestyle Pauline had begun away from her little sister Terese- to serve Jesus fully as a nun- cloistered... That was so hard on Terese, and I feel that not being able to be free to see you and talk to you as much, is very hard too.
I also think of Terese in our relationship a lot, because you and I have shared so many wonderful spiritual experiences and stories with each other over the past years just like Terese and Pauline had some wonderful experiences in their faith life that they shared with each other--- Plus St. Therese is our patron saint---We both had her as our Confirmation Name.
So, St. Terese is special to you and to me. That is another reason I link our relationship so much to her and her sister Pauline- whom she loved so very much-
Pauline, like you, took on a mother role in her life when their mother died. And while our mom is still alive- thank God- still you have been like a mom to me from time to time, when I have felt life caving in on me and didn't feel strong enough to make it on my own. You Linda, have given me direction and helped me to renew my faith life. So, even though you are my big sister- you have given me motherly love and advice which I will always cherish. Especially now, since our own mom, who lives with me now, is weakening and not as able to endure some of the concerns that I have- nor should she have to at this time in her life. So, I am grateful to you Linda. Thank you so very much for all you have done to be a big sister to me.
I hope you are feeling somewhat better tonight. I will be happy when you can stop taking your chemo. I am praying that that day will come quickly---
But until then, please rest peacefully in Jesus arms tonight as you sleep Linda. Good night for now--I love you ---Sharon
Marcus- I hope you are having a good weekend, but I wonder if this is the weekend that you had to take your chemo-- or was it last weekend and if you are feeling stronger-- I don't know which weekend it is, but either way I still am "walking with Christ" for you and am praying for you to become stronger and stronger everyday Marcus. Know that Jesus is with you and that you can lean on Him for your strength. I know you will lean on Jesus, Marcus- you are an amazing young man of God! You give me hope...
Have a peaceful night sleep and may the Lord's love fill your soul--- Good night Marcus-Love - Sharon
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Thursday Sept 24, 2009
Linda
I have had a chance to talk with you off and on. Still you suffer with extreme exhaustion and feeling so sick. I am so sorry- I wish it were not so. I wish things could be different. That we could laugh, share fun times together on the phone, talk longer, but you are too tired and it is hard for you right now.
I understand, but it still makes me so sad. It is hard.
In the meantime I continue to plod forward in my effort to take care of mom and provide her with as much tender care as you and Chris did. It is a daunting task and I thank you for doing it for over a year. I feel overwhelmed and exhausted by it already and it has only been 2 months for me so far.
Mom gave me a scare - she fell last night- I managed to get her up and she wasn't hurt, but she did cut her arm on the railing of the staircase. I put band aids on her arm. However, she bled on her white sheets in the night. When I got home from work today I found that she had taken the sheets off her bed and thrown them in the corner. But as you and I both know, if you have blood on something, it has to be put in cold water right away to get it out. Well, she didn't do that, of course, because she can't, and so once I discovered that the sheets had blood on them, I put the sheets in clorox and cold water.
Oddly enough, the clorox ate a hole in the top part of the flat sheet and so I had to go out and buy her a new set of KING SIZE sheets for her bed. Guess I learned something new about clorox that I never knew before- don't put too much clorox on fabric for too long or it will "eat" the fabric !! YIPES!
Anyway, she was fine, so I thought. But this afternoon, while I was putting the sheets in the laundry I heard a thud! I yelled up to mom and asked her if she was OK and she said, "yes" but I didn't believe her so I went running to find her and I saw her "crawling" on the floor from where she had fallen--she didn't want me to know she had fallen so she was trying to get in a place where I couldn't see her on the floor. I quickly ran to her and tried to pick her up, but she was so weak that it was very hard for me to lift her up off the floor. She had to hold on to the railing of the stairs so I could help her lift up off the floor.
It was scary needless to say. I am insisting that she now gets Life Line and wears it on her body daily since I can't be home with her all the time, like you were able to be..
So, kuddos to you and Chris for all you did to take care of Mom. It is a very daunting task. You did a great job. You served her well. Now it is my turn. And while I find it hard from time to time, I am grateful I get the time to spend with her regardless.
I know she misses living with you all- she wishes so much she could be there taking care of you- isn't that sweet?--- even though she can barely take care of herself...
I guess mom's are like that, eh!
But since neither she or I can be there to help you as you go through another type of struggle - a time of suffering--know that we appreciate all you have done for mom, and all you have always done for me. You must be headed straight to heaven when you leave this earth! The Lord is waiting with open arms... He is grateful to you for all the love you gave to mom and everyone! So am I ...
Big Sis, I am still "walking with Christ" for you and carry you to Jesus , Mary and the Holy Spirit daily, and I ask them to guide you and comfort you. I know they are doing that even though it is hard on you. The Lord never told us that we would not suffer, but He has promised to "walk with us" through our suffering.. I know you feel Him "walking with you" in this difficult time of suffering Linda.
I know you know His love-my dear sister. I hope you rest peacefully tonight again. I love you so much.
I truly miss you- Here are some hugs for you--- Much love and good night- Sharon
Marcus, your dear Mom called me and told me the great news about you. That your 3 tumors have totally shrunk and gone away and the 4th big one is 50 percent shrunk and that the doctors feel so good about your treatment that they are going to reduce the length of time that you have to take the chemo. Marcus that is amazing..... I am so thankful to God. I am so happy for you.
God has great plans in store for you- I know you trust Him. I know you know that He loves you deeply. Hold on to that Marcus and "be not afraid" my friend. The Lord your God is with you.
I am "Walking with Christ" daily for you and carrying you too to Jesus, Mary and the Dear Holy Spirit of God and praying for your speedy recovery--- we need good holy priests, and so you have to get well soon-- So, may the Lord bless you and heal you, and may we witness you being ordained a holy priest for Jesus one day soon---Amen....
In Christ love,
Sharon
I have had a chance to talk with you off and on. Still you suffer with extreme exhaustion and feeling so sick. I am so sorry- I wish it were not so. I wish things could be different. That we could laugh, share fun times together on the phone, talk longer, but you are too tired and it is hard for you right now.
I understand, but it still makes me so sad. It is hard.
In the meantime I continue to plod forward in my effort to take care of mom and provide her with as much tender care as you and Chris did. It is a daunting task and I thank you for doing it for over a year. I feel overwhelmed and exhausted by it already and it has only been 2 months for me so far.
Mom gave me a scare - she fell last night- I managed to get her up and she wasn't hurt, but she did cut her arm on the railing of the staircase. I put band aids on her arm. However, she bled on her white sheets in the night. When I got home from work today I found that she had taken the sheets off her bed and thrown them in the corner. But as you and I both know, if you have blood on something, it has to be put in cold water right away to get it out. Well, she didn't do that, of course, because she can't, and so once I discovered that the sheets had blood on them, I put the sheets in clorox and cold water.
Oddly enough, the clorox ate a hole in the top part of the flat sheet and so I had to go out and buy her a new set of KING SIZE sheets for her bed. Guess I learned something new about clorox that I never knew before- don't put too much clorox on fabric for too long or it will "eat" the fabric !! YIPES!
Anyway, she was fine, so I thought. But this afternoon, while I was putting the sheets in the laundry I heard a thud! I yelled up to mom and asked her if she was OK and she said, "yes" but I didn't believe her so I went running to find her and I saw her "crawling" on the floor from where she had fallen--she didn't want me to know she had fallen so she was trying to get in a place where I couldn't see her on the floor. I quickly ran to her and tried to pick her up, but she was so weak that it was very hard for me to lift her up off the floor. She had to hold on to the railing of the stairs so I could help her lift up off the floor.
It was scary needless to say. I am insisting that she now gets Life Line and wears it on her body daily since I can't be home with her all the time, like you were able to be..
So, kuddos to you and Chris for all you did to take care of Mom. It is a very daunting task. You did a great job. You served her well. Now it is my turn. And while I find it hard from time to time, I am grateful I get the time to spend with her regardless.
I know she misses living with you all- she wishes so much she could be there taking care of you- isn't that sweet?--- even though she can barely take care of herself...
I guess mom's are like that, eh!
But since neither she or I can be there to help you as you go through another type of struggle - a time of suffering--know that we appreciate all you have done for mom, and all you have always done for me. You must be headed straight to heaven when you leave this earth! The Lord is waiting with open arms... He is grateful to you for all the love you gave to mom and everyone! So am I ...
Big Sis, I am still "walking with Christ" for you and carry you to Jesus , Mary and the Holy Spirit daily, and I ask them to guide you and comfort you. I know they are doing that even though it is hard on you. The Lord never told us that we would not suffer, but He has promised to "walk with us" through our suffering.. I know you feel Him "walking with you" in this difficult time of suffering Linda.
I know you know His love-my dear sister. I hope you rest peacefully tonight again. I love you so much.
I truly miss you- Here are some hugs for you--- Much love and good night- Sharon
Marcus, your dear Mom called me and told me the great news about you. That your 3 tumors have totally shrunk and gone away and the 4th big one is 50 percent shrunk and that the doctors feel so good about your treatment that they are going to reduce the length of time that you have to take the chemo. Marcus that is amazing..... I am so thankful to God. I am so happy for you.
God has great plans in store for you- I know you trust Him. I know you know that He loves you deeply. Hold on to that Marcus and "be not afraid" my friend. The Lord your God is with you.
I am "Walking with Christ" daily for you and carrying you too to Jesus, Mary and the Dear Holy Spirit of God and praying for your speedy recovery--- we need good holy priests, and so you have to get well soon-- So, may the Lord bless you and heal you, and may we witness you being ordained a holy priest for Jesus one day soon---Amen....
In Christ love,
Sharon
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Tuesday Sept 15, 09
Linda dear,
It has been over a month now since I have posted anything because I know you have been too sick to even read any of my messages to you. I thought though that today I would drop you a line again and say hi. It has been a long day but a good one. I only hope that that has been true for you too.
I did get your phone call message today that you left on my cell phone. I was at work so I couldn't pick it up but as soon as I could, I listened to my voicemail.
I am excited to hear that Lianna is pregnant. CONGRATULATIONS GRANDMA and GRANDPA!!
That is so wonderful... What a blessing. We know full well how exciting it is to be grandparents.
Great news!!!
I hope this news brings a little joy to you as you continue to struggle with feeling so sick and so exhausted from the chemo you are taking.
Remember Linda as a young mom the days you were so exhausted from the birth of your babies and the sleepless nights that went on forever and ever? Try to think about those days --- maybe that will bring a smile to your face as you realize now that your own little girl is going to be "sleepless in Virgina" too and she will be feeling what it means to be able to have a small part in bringing forth another child for the kingdom of God. Just like you did. And you did so well. Your children are amazing....
Let this bring you joy as you struggle with your " sickness and exhaustion" Linda.
I am sure you realize that today, Sept 15, 09, is the Feast day of Our Lady of Sorrow. Mary, Jesus' mother understands what it means to suffer Linda. She watched in agony as her dear son, was beaten, spit upon, tortured, mocked, hung on a cross....She understands your pain Linda.
She is with you. Turn to her to help pray for your renewed strength.
Yesterday, Monday, Sept 14, 09, was the feast day of the Holy Cross. The Holy Cross that our dear Lord Jesus hung on for you for 3 hours. 3 longs hours of misery and suffering unbelievable so you could know how very much you are loved by Him. Look into His face Linda, and let His love, care, concern, and tenderness, radiate peace onto you. Feel His love blow softly across your face as He breathes His breath of love onto you Linda. Let His love help you rest in peace tonight. Know that His mother of Sorrow, is praying for you, to Him; Him, who knows all sorrow....
I am praying for you my big sis-- and as always, everyday, "I am walking with Christ" for you and praying for you to Jesus. I am trusting Him to hold you close to His heart. I love you so much Linda. I miss you so very much. Here is a big hug .. Sweet dreams from your little sis! Much much love----- Sharon
Marcus- I haven't written to you in a long time either- I hear you are back in the seminary and are an RA. Doing all this while you are taking chemo. You are amazingly strong! I am praying for you Marcus and I carry you to Jesus daily in the Eucharist too. I want you to know that I am continually "walking with Christ" for you daily with the hopes that you will feel God's great love and healing power in your heart, soul and body, Marcus.
Take care my friend. Be not afraid. God is with you and so are we. Sharon
It has been over a month now since I have posted anything because I know you have been too sick to even read any of my messages to you. I thought though that today I would drop you a line again and say hi. It has been a long day but a good one. I only hope that that has been true for you too.
I did get your phone call message today that you left on my cell phone. I was at work so I couldn't pick it up but as soon as I could, I listened to my voicemail.
I am excited to hear that Lianna is pregnant. CONGRATULATIONS GRANDMA and GRANDPA!!
That is so wonderful... What a blessing. We know full well how exciting it is to be grandparents.
Great news!!!
I hope this news brings a little joy to you as you continue to struggle with feeling so sick and so exhausted from the chemo you are taking.
Remember Linda as a young mom the days you were so exhausted from the birth of your babies and the sleepless nights that went on forever and ever? Try to think about those days --- maybe that will bring a smile to your face as you realize now that your own little girl is going to be "sleepless in Virgina" too and she will be feeling what it means to be able to have a small part in bringing forth another child for the kingdom of God. Just like you did. And you did so well. Your children are amazing....
Let this bring you joy as you struggle with your " sickness and exhaustion" Linda.
I am sure you realize that today, Sept 15, 09, is the Feast day of Our Lady of Sorrow. Mary, Jesus' mother understands what it means to suffer Linda. She watched in agony as her dear son, was beaten, spit upon, tortured, mocked, hung on a cross....She understands your pain Linda.
She is with you. Turn to her to help pray for your renewed strength.
Yesterday, Monday, Sept 14, 09, was the feast day of the Holy Cross. The Holy Cross that our dear Lord Jesus hung on for you for 3 hours. 3 longs hours of misery and suffering unbelievable so you could know how very much you are loved by Him. Look into His face Linda, and let His love, care, concern, and tenderness, radiate peace onto you. Feel His love blow softly across your face as He breathes His breath of love onto you Linda. Let His love help you rest in peace tonight. Know that His mother of Sorrow, is praying for you, to Him; Him, who knows all sorrow....
I am praying for you my big sis-- and as always, everyday, "I am walking with Christ" for you and praying for you to Jesus. I am trusting Him to hold you close to His heart. I love you so much Linda. I miss you so very much. Here is a big hug .. Sweet dreams from your little sis! Much much love----- Sharon
Marcus- I haven't written to you in a long time either- I hear you are back in the seminary and are an RA. Doing all this while you are taking chemo. You are amazingly strong! I am praying for you Marcus and I carry you to Jesus daily in the Eucharist too. I want you to know that I am continually "walking with Christ" for you daily with the hopes that you will feel God's great love and healing power in your heart, soul and body, Marcus.
Take care my friend. Be not afraid. God is with you and so are we. Sharon
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